Destiny?

You know, I always thought people who said that they believed in destiny just needed to lay off the weed & get lives... I mean, really, what is this destiny crap? "Oh, I believe the cosmos know just what is going to happen to me..." I took a class in college called "Game Theory." It's a realist's view of the universe, and fit me to a tee. I guess it's because I have a very rational, logical view of life: It is what you make it.

But the events the past few weeks have made me start to question that disbelief in destiny. As a Catholic, I should really just say "well, it's in God's hands, and he will do with it as he chooses." But I have a hard time giving up that kind of control to God--After all, last time I did that I ended up in a lab at 4am wondering if I could will protein bands to move on a gel faster... In any case, things are just aligning. It's strange. Perhaps part of it is just my outlook on life: Everything happens for a reason--it's how you deal with it that makes all the difference. That isn't the same thing as "Destiny." It's more of the realization that not everything's within our control, and we just have to give up trying to control that which we can't.

I think it's that way with grades. I was talking to a classmate today, who didn't do really well in 1 class. They are convinced that it will drop them out of law review. My answer to them was "you can't control how other people do, only yourself." I don't necessarily share that person's belief that finals are "all luck," but I do think that at some point, what will be will be, and it's how you react to it that matters.

People are still moping about today. I think it'll be better once the school publishes the GPA scaling--i.e. how everyone fell out statistically. Maybe that will make people with 3.3 GPAs not feel like the world is ending, or people with 3.5 GPAs realize they're pretty close to the top of the class. Either or, it'll be interesting to watch peoples' reactions change once the scaling is published.